I thought life might become much clearer with the changing of the seasons.
Much like this picture of berries, the short term is clear, beyond that is fuzzy.
Carter had his MRI a few weeks ago, and as usual, his tumor didn't change.
I have had to step back from the situation. Things are moving along, with more tests planned for this winter. Our doctors have different opinions on what we should do with him. More tests is really a blessing. We got further along at his last appointment than we ever have. An answer, but certainly not the "get the right answers NOW" I asked for.
It has been a struggle to ask daily with a "wait" answer. I will keep giving my requests to HIM, and daily work at surrendering to His will for our family. I am thankful for His blessings; medical insurance (especially since this year there has been major appointments and medicinal expenses for everyone in our house but Addison), parents/in-laws to watch our children, a boy who only has a benign tumor instead of a malignant one. I am always encouraged by Ed and Carol McNiece. I know how hard they must have prayed for Matt after his fall and how hard it was to hear such a grim prognosis for his life. Yet they kept praying. Our Father answered and Matt's life became a miracle. I must remember that it wasn't as simple as it seemed. Learning things over, tests and more tests, setbacks - all things a majority of us never witnessed. I know they hold us up as well. It means a great deal to us to know they understand. Most days I am amazed at their faith in that situation.
Carter constantly sings "Blessed Be Your Name"
Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name
This song is my prayer. When it's painful and when it's easy, we will praise our Father. May this song be your prayer as well.
~Ash
